The most beautiful song in the world

Both Sides Now, by Joni Mitchell

Rows and floes of angel hair
And ice cream castles in the air
And feather canyons ev'rywhere
I've looked at clouds that way
But now they only block the sun
They rain and snow on ev'ryone
So many things I would have done
But clouds got in my way
I've looked at clouds from both sides now
From up and down, and still somehow
It's cloud illusions I recall
I really don’t know clouds at all

Moons and junes and ferris wheels
The dizzy dancing way you feel
As ev'ry fairy tale comes real
I've looked at love that way
But now it's just another show
You leave 'em laughing when you go
And if you care, don't let them know
Don't give yourself away
I've looked at love from both sides now
From give and take, and still somehow
It's love's illusions I recall
I really don't know love at all

Tears and fears and feeling proud
To say I love you right out loud
Dreams and schemes and circus crowds
I've looked at life that way
But now old friends are acting strange
They shake their heads, they say I've changed
Well something's lost, but something's gained
In living ev'ry day
I've looked at life from both sides now
From win and lose and still somehow
It's life's illusions I recall
I really don't know life at all

I've looked at life from both sides now
From up and down, and still somehow
It's life's illusions I recall
I really don't know life at all

Celebrating good times

Happy birthday to Dian! Here's to many many many MANY more days of craziness, cards, Nirwana, Muthu's, Starbucks... and let's hope your new age will also mean a year of less road accidents!!!! :p Looking forward to our great Euro trip, baby!

P/S: NOW can you see the ewok in you?



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Things are looking up

It's 3.53 am and I'm still awake, chatting to Dian about our great Euro trip, weddings and boys. In fact, Zuhi's just popped into the living room. She's leaving me for a two-day trip to Paris with Arisa. Sob!

I had a really long phone conversation with June two days ago. It felt good, since we haven't spoken since she left London, and on a bad note too. I guess she confirmed what I've been feeling all this while - that I'm stifled by my current set of friends. Perhaps we see each other too much too often that there's ample room for petty squabbles and negative emotions. It's hard to change your routine though, when you're so used to seeing these people on a daily basis. I'm taking little steps to expand though. This past two weeks, I've been catching up with the friends I've missed out on for a while now (Cahyadi and Joey); and I've plans to meet up with Deb, Fauz and Mei some time soon. It's good to see some new (but old) faces every now and then because at the end of the day I come home feeling happy as a lark and more appreciative of my little bunch.

I had the longest day yesterday. I woke up at 12, showered and went to school to pick Zuhi up so we could go to Tooting together to see Nadia. Tooting is like Little India - all the restaurants are Indian, all the shops are Indian and most of the people on the street are Indian. We had lunch at an Indian restaurant, bought sweeties at an Indian dessert store, then whooshed off to the house where Nad's living. She's got a lovely room up in the attic. The room has two slanted windows which are perfect for stargazing and musing over random thoughts. We left at about 6 pm and I went straight to Paddington for B-Night rehearsals. Eugene's cousin Amanda was in town that day so we went to Garfunkel's after practice for a drink. We left by about midnight and I got home and did all my online shit... up till now. I'm still doing my online shit, looking for cheap flights to Barcelona for Nad's, Zuhi's and my Easter break.

Okay you guys are going to puke on all the love I have for my nephew, but this just in: new photos, courtesy of his daddy. Heeheeheehee.

End of the week

Look what I found on Purse Blog! :D :D :D Although I have to say my doggies wouldn't be caught dead in one of those, and it doesn't matter that it's by Gucci.

Baby, mommy and daddy

Happy birthday to my darling Gabriel who turns one today! Thanks to Dian who took this pic of my dribbling cutesy pie.



It's my parents' anniversary today as well. I don't know how long it's been but happy anniversary to the two people I owe my existence to anyway! :)

Stuck

I haven't been feeling like myself lately. I'm not chirpy, I don't like hanging out with my usual kaki; rather, I prefer the company of my housemates, best friends, or plain solitude, I'm increasingly adverse to smoke, I can't stand poker, and ultimately I miss home, my parents and my sisters, June who's far away in Bristol, Nadia who isn't too far away in Tooting, Yen in Sydney, Dian, Toi, MF, Phing, Siew Wan, Nat, Sook Kuan and all my other girlfriends in KL. I feel hollow, like nothing I do brings out any reaction in me. The only emotions that haven't left me are homesickness and my inherent possessiveness.

I think what I really miss is the company of girls. Constantly hanging out with a group of boys has its cons sometimes. They just don't provide you the same comfort that girls do. And boys think girls have too many problems. Please la. I think both genders have the same amount of problems - boys just don't like talking about them, and that makes them muddled up creatures. Girls on the other hand will talk about everything and anything under the sun which is why we're at our happiest when we've let all our shit out.

England isn't fun anymore. I had enjoyed my time here during A-Levels, but uni is excruciatingly tough. Every time I go for class I am reminded of the ever increasing amount of work that's piling up on me.

I need a break. Reading week is next week. I'm glad we don't have any essays to do. All I wanna do is go home and have some fun for a week or two. Home. Home. Home.

Look what I found...

... in Boots (one of the major pharmaceutical chains in UK) today. Nad's hair merchandise - a whole shelf full of 'em! I guess our Nadia won't be naming a product after herself anytime soon.